...There's Just Somethin About That Name...

I've been hearing a lot about worry and doubt these days, mainly from myself. As you might have read in earlier posts, I've been so confused as to what my future holds. Now that I've finally picked a major, after 4 very long years, I'm super excited. But now what? Will I stay here? Will I make new friends in my new department? Will I have the money to pay my car payment this month? Will I get to go to Africa? Will I.... All these doubts and all these worries are completely legit, completely understandable, and completely dumb! Who am I to question the God of the universe? This huge perfect God that cared enough for me and you to plan so delicately put into place. I get so frustrated with myself thinking about all this things, when really I just need to rely on Him for all the answers that I need and all the comfort I could use!

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the Peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:6-7

I know I've blogged about it before, but it's a subject that so relates to just about everyone.



Another subject that's been on my mind a lot is the snow. Who would have thought it would snow, not only once, but three times in Frisco, TX in a span of two weeks?! It was truly a Christmas surprise, and possibly a miracle! As I watched the snow fall from somewhere too high for me to fathom, to the ground I noticed just how beautiful and pure it is. I began to think about God and just who He is, who I'm not, and everything His grace covers to make good again. It's amazing how much I can mess things up! I take things into my own hands, and make them even messier, but, just like the snow, God covers all that is ugly and wrong, then everything melts and it's all washed away and you get to start all over again. I'm just so in awe of Him today. Man what an awesome God we serve!!
Well, that's all I have for today! Sorry if I'm all over the place! I hope you had a wonderful Christmas! I'll be talking to you real soon!
Forever His,
EmilyJo

Your future's so dull you should bring a flashlight?

It's a Tuesday night that started like any other Tuesday night. Ella got off work over an hour late because her evil boss assigned her the biggest project of the year just three hours before the deadline. She has worked her butt off trying to please her so she could keep her job, so she could support herself, but more importantly so she could afford her much needed vacation. Ella pulls into the driveway to see her boyfriend of four years waiting for her on the front porch. He had a foolish grin on his face as she grabbed her purse and laptop bag and walked up the sidewalk shuffling through the endless pile of bills she had received in the mail that day. "Yep, just a normal Tuesday night", she thought as she arrived at the door in front of her boyfriend, Frank. "Let's go for a drive", he says as he takes the heavy computer out of her hand. Being too tired to argue, she nods her head and gets into his car. They were driving around for what seemed like hours until they arrived in Central Park. Ella had always loved this park ever since she moved to the Big City to pursue her career as a journalist, well and Frank. As they began to stroll through the constant line of trees with leaves that were falling effortlessly, she couldn't help but think about the events from the day. Her awful boss, the ridiculous last minute project... again... and Frank. Sweet Frank had no idea she wasn't even thinking about him. She didn't even notice they had stopped walking. They were on a bridge surrounded by candle light. Frank, fumbling for something in his pocket. Could this be it?? Could this really be happening...

You know being this far into my college career and learning this much about life in general, I feel as though I should have way more figured out! I mean, where is my life going? What am I going to be doing for the next five years? Where is this road I've chosen leading me in the next year?

How do you turn what seems like a dull future into a bright one? All these questions are without answers. You ever feel like you're headed down a road that has a huge orange and white sign saying "dead end"? I mean picking a career path, deciding where to live, where to go, who to associate with?? It seems like the questions are limitless and answers are nonexistent.

It seems like people, like in the story above, don't even have things figured out and they've been in "the real world" for years. I guess it just takes a little less doubt and a lot more trust. God has a plan for us right? A plan to help us and not to harm us... sound familiar?? Do you think it's selfish to doubt, when you know in your heart of hearts there's a plan. And not only is there a plan, but there is this huge, beautiful, perfect plan that the God of the universe has so thoughtfully and graciously planned out. You know, if we weren't such stupid humans, life would go significantly smoother... does anyone feel the same way as me?

I hope this finds you having an awesome weekend! I cannot believe it's already Christmas time!! I love you all more than you know!
Forever His,
EmilyJo