Ruin My Life

"Ruin my life, the plans that I've made.
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain.
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place,
Til it's YOU alone I live for"
~Jeff Johnson Band


Today I was on my way to my mom's office so her coworker could give me my B12 injection (long story as to why she has to do it), anyways, I was listening to Jeff Johnson and "Ruin Me" came on. The lyrics of the chorus really stuck with me and rang in my mind all day. "Ruin my life", what an odd request. More times than not that phrase is a bad thing. "Mom, you embarrassed me in front of my friends! You're ruining my life!!" or "He broke my heart, and now my life is ruined!". Rarely do you say "Ruin my life" and mean "Ruin everything that I am so that I may embrace everything You are". Today I prayed something that I haven't prayed in a very long time. As many of you know, I am recently unemployed, and while I was having a huge pitty party that everyone was invited to, I stopped and realized that God is so much bigger than that. To me, losing my income ruined my life. All of the sudden I went from having it all to being scared of how I'm going to pay my next car payment. I was so wrapped up in everything that has been going on that I didn't stop to think about God's purpose through everything. My prayer is that God would continue to completely RUIN my life, that I may be everything He wants me to be. I can't wait for Estonia. I'm praying He would do some incredible ruining over there too!


The Jamaica trip is tomorrow! I'm so excited to see how the Lord uses you guys!! I can't wait to hear all about it!!


It's almost the weekend! Hang in there!
I love you all more than you know!
Forever His,
Emily Jo